I am in misery.

Next time you're stressed, take a step back, inhale, and laugh. Remember who you are and why you are here. You're never given anything in this world that you cannot handle. Be strong, be flexible. Love yourself and love others. Always remember, just keep moving forward.

Let me come straight to the point, I suck at Radians. -_- DAMN IT, i am having a really hard time figuring this shit out. Walao eh. Degrees then degrees la. Still need change into what radian. Totally unneeded la damnit. So i was very depressed during math lesson because i dont know how to do the sums. (i still figured it out in the end though, like when the class was almost ending?!)

DNT sucked too. ROAR. DNT is gonna haunt me for the next 1 and the half years. How am i gonna survive!!! :( Chinese also!!! Gosh i am supposed to do some weird newspaper report or something for Chinese. I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT SHE TALKING LA. Ohmy, china accents turn me to sleeping mood ok. Roar.

So today, everyone in my clique was busy, except me. Awesome eh? Everyone of them had to stay back in school for their own reason. Aw man, had to go home myself. Hmmm but coincidental much, i saw Jonas and co. just at the gate. So aiya, i was like so lonely. I just followed them opposite since Jonas suggested~ Haha got busted by Joel so many bloody times. Ugh irritating. He still can keep smiling and laughing. WOW PIAK YOU. Didnt know whether to go amk or j8. -_- Jonas la, he wanna walk to bishanpark there. Heh i'm lazy.. So i went j8 lor. It's like a shorter way to my house.

Went home, ate dinner and tried finding the stupid DNT pictures. WOW I HATE DNT. I'm trying to play dnt's feelings so that it could give me marks. You know... like pretend to love it. BUT EVEN THAT, ITS SO HARD!!! Thats how much i hate you, DNT. -_- LOL. 

Hair craze.

Hawt skin colour she has LOL. I want to slim down! (Here it goes again....)

I hate being second to those whom i put first.

Ya know, i was looking forward to blogging while i was in school. But now, i totally forgot what i wanted to post, exactly.

Well... School today was immensely boring, especially Computer studies. If you saw my tweet, you'd know. Haha, dance after school was, stressful. The whole lesson was about across-the-floors. :( very depressing i swear. Especially the first exercise, Pirouttes!!! WHY!!! Is my butt to big or am i too fat to do a proper turn?! I see other people do until so easy until i super annoyed la! I dont want to go to level 1 :( It's a fucking sad thing ohmyfgod. How!!! Well at least i didnt do chennel that badly. Kinda surprised me. Teacher taught a new kind of pas de bourre and i didnt do that badly.

Went home and truthfully, i didnt do anything fruitful today. Gonna get a lashing from Mr yeo tomorrow i'm sure. I'm already looking forward to it. Sorry Mr yeo, in advance LOL. Talked on the phone for a lil while and i'm blogging now, obviously.

I'm feeling very bored now and i cannot think of anything that i wanna do :( I just want to use the computer so here i am. I cannot believe it's 4more days to my birthday. Gosh it's gonna be another boring birthday like last year. I wanna get the samsung camera. Its kinda old i guess, but it's so cool!!! The model's TL225. I want it!!! Really!!! :(

I. love. her. fringe and. hair. colour. alot x1000000.

Treachery

People don't look at your personality first. People judge you automatically by your looks and then try to get to know your personality. But if they don't like your looks, they won't give a damn about you. That's how reality is. That is why the first impression of many people to me are like total opposite from their current impression.

Hello guyz. I'm back to blogging. The weekends are kinda boring for me, again, as usual. Ugh seriously hate weekends. When i'm alone, in my room, my emotions go wild and i think of all sorts of surreal things, which would never EVER happen to me.

So i went for Hiphop open class on Saturday together with Brice. Now i know what Brice meant when he said it was level 10. LOL i couldnt see what the teacher was teaching :( I got hold of the steps still though, after many practices. I wanna go Street Jazz. Anyone wanna follow? 31st July, 2pm and you've to pay $20 for first timer.

Went home and was busy all day long with the First impression thingy on Facebook. Then went Tampines Mall with family for dinner and stuff. Reached home, bathed and i forgot what i did. Talked on the phone for a little while and went to bed at 1plus in the morning.

My life's boring i know... :( There's school tomorrow. I have DNT homework to do :( Sigh i feel like dying.

Imperfection

Frustrated because I can't tell if it's real. Mad because I don't know how you feel. Upset because we can't make it right. Sad because I need you day and night. Angry because you won't take my hand. Aggravated because you don't understand. Disappointed because we can't be together, but still I'll love you forever.

Well, hello there everybody.

Yesterday wasnt as boring as i imagined it would be. Okay school hours itself was boring. After school, i had fun! ^^ I would just skip the morning hours about lessons and stuff because it simply just put others to sleep, i guess.

Okay so yeah, had Motivational Math after school. Before that, followed Charlotte to the canteen to have her lunch while i bought some light food like bread and stuff. I saw the three musketeers(Jonas, Joel and Enwei) @ the canteen too. Enwei treated me like i was some kind of lion.. :( "Relax... Ok relax..?" was what he told me. What the heaven, i was like smiling and he thought i was angry. He imitated me to show me that i was fierce or angry, whatever. LOL like ridiculous. I know... I have small eyes. Plus the edge of my eyes is sharp. You know cat's eye? Except mine's way smaller of course. So i will ALWAYS look fierce even though I'm happy. What a sad thing. :(  Ok nevermind about that.

So we chatted for little while in the canteen with Charlotte. Damnit i almost molested Jonas because he snatched my stupid wallet. Ha don't wanna mention about it because it wasn't on fucking purpose. Went up to MM class after charlotte's lunch and chat. MM was boring :( But my teacher, Ms Eileen, made it interesting! Our mixed up class was split into 4 small groups. So i think I'm like so lucky!! Because i got the most awesome teacher. She is so pretty and has a very sexy voice, plus she has a sense of humour LOL.

So when it ended, Charlotte and all the dance peeps went to dance studio. We were nominating the mistresses(Hair, Makeup and Wardrobe mistress) and treasurer. Ok one thing for sure, i did not expect anyone to vote for me. -_- But ohmygosh, i ended up being the Wardrobe mistress. -_- Gosh it is such a hard position. LOL. Packed the dance studio properly into place and had a small farewell party for the seniors.

Omg it was such a i-must-cry moment when Liqian went up to have her speech to the seniors. The minute she cry uh, most of us' eyes turned red man. It's kinda sad that they're leaving us already :( I think their batch, they dance tremendously well. That's the reason why the item "Home" on Oeuvre was so beautiful. Ate cake and pizza L-O-L. Dance ended at 6plus.

When i got up the bus, i didnt realised Dominic was also on the bus. -_- You know what? I felt my phone vibrating so i looked at it. When i saw "Dominic is calling", i was like huhhhhhhh. Weird. Suddenly, i had the sudden urge to look back, IDK WHY SERIOUSLY!!! I didnt espect myself to see him there. Plus my vision is not really fantatic these days... So it took me almost a minute to realise that IT WAS HIM! My reaction cute only. "OMG HUH WALAO EH?!" Then i hanged the phone. LOLLLLLL i didnt even said hi.. How rude of me right? Yeah, when i got off the bus, he was like right beside me and i didnt even bother to look at him and smile. Why is it always this case uh. The previous time also like that. Ok nevermind. I promise myself i will say hi to him if there is such a coincidence again. :)

Today, school was short and sweet. CS was boring. Math and bio was fun. Jonas was so angry with Dennis just now. So scary, he so angry. Chinese was boring, needless to say. And Socialstudies was interesting. (Except for the srilanka thing. I have no clue about that at all.) Went amk with Jai to watch "Despicable Me". 4.5/5!!!!!! The yellow "cousins" of Gru are all super adorable! Ohmygosh!!! Agnes and damnnnnnnnnnnn cute too! GO WATCH OK. GOGOGO!!!

So i just reached home. Here's what i'm planning to do.
1. Check my Facebok.
2. Check out people's tumblr.
3. Watch The Killers.
4. Watch The Karate Kid.
5. Study.
6. Get myself stuck onto the computer for no reason till bedtime.
7. Ask my mom if i can follow Brice to open class tomorrow.

SAYONARA!!!!!

Happy Birthday Nico!!!

True friend, where are you?

Someday, we’ll run into each other again, I know it. Maybe I’ll be older and smarter and just plain better. If that happens, that’s when I’ll deserve you. But now, at this moment, you can’t hook your boat to mine, ‘cause I’m liable to sink us both.Gabrielle Zevin - Memoirs of a Teenage Amnesiac

Hi. I'm currently in school, during DNT lesson. Ha i've finished my work and hence, i'm able to log into blogger. Actually even if the work is not done, i'm sure a pretty handful of you would still use the computer right. LOL.


So yeah. There is actually nothing much i can post. It's not like my life is that interesting. Yesterday was a pretty rough day for me. I dont really know why, i just dont feel right. Weird but i had h2h talks with Jonas, like literally! I must also really thank Charlotte for lending a listening ear during bio's free period. Thanks alot. I turned to Amanda but she totally turned me off -_- HAHA everyone knows she cannot listen to people's sorrows.


Now, i'm just thinking what i can write here to interest you people but my mind is like, blank. I know that there's double English period later. Shitasss. Sigh, alright i'm off. Bye.


Updated @ 5.11pm
Hello~ I knew English was shitass. Did some comprehension about Sharks, for the whole 2 period. Remember the unknown teacher who confiscated my phone? He created a tiny scene in the middle of the period. He shouted, "CHEATING UH!?!?!?!?" like tremendously loud. Seriously shocked the hell otta me. Whatever. Had recess and then History period. Tanweina didnt come. So that unknown guy took over. Gawd he was like a totally changed person. WHAT?! Trying to lick my shoes issit? (LOL SOUNDS FREAKING WRONG BECAUSE ANYWAY, HE IS STILL OLDER THAN ME.) He asked me why i had 2 iPhones. -_- You think i'm so rich to buy 2iphones for myself? Lol obviously not. Since he touched both of em, he should know that one of them is slimmer than the other! I told ya, he havent touched an iphone/itouch before. -_- He even taught me the first history source based question. I dont really understand though. He talked so much, i only wrote one sentence down L-O-L.


Chemistry was next and yeah it was boring until we had to try out the questions. Learning chapter 8, The Mole, now. It kinda look complicated but it really isnt. It's like primary school mathematics, how hilarious. LOL ok maybe i'm just gloating over it now since i havent learnt the whole chapter. Assembly was bullshit. I dont understand why the teachers bullshit so much. -.- Had chem remedial after school. Gosh i seriously did the entire worksheet man. I CANT BELIEVE MYSELF OK. ITS CHEMISTRY?!?!?! I've been failing science ever since P4... (Except for PSLE and Sec1 commontest1) Yeah i know this is not a test but, HA i did understand what i was doing. That's amazing enough :) Hehe.

Went crazily insane with Jai while waiting for bus and on the bus. Like siao like that hahaha~ Dabao KFC's Snackers home and that's my dinner for today. :) So yeah! My day's not really VERY terrible... Hehehe.

Unbelievably, I like you.

Heya, i'm here to blog about today before doing DNT.

It wasnt a really awesome day today. Well i dont know why either. Had flu and tummyache the whole day. Gawd, what is wrong with me. -.- Plus i had bad hair&face day. Eeeek wished i could be like Dennis for once. He can skip school for no reason!!!

Lessons were kinda boring. I actually paid attention to every lesson today except CS. I have no idea what the teacher was talking about la. History lesson was FREAKING boring!!!!(even though i paid attention.) My itouch and iphone was confiscated by this unknown teacher. DAMNIT!!!! What is his freaking problem!!!! I bet he never touched an iphone nor an itouch before. Ugh Dennis kinda warned me but i turned a deaf ear to him till the very last minute. Very bad uh... I know, lol. When i got back my phone, he then told me that very same teacher confiscated his phone too, but Dennis had to write a "composition" to get his phone back. So he told me i was lucky.

Supposed to catch Despicable me after school. However the timings didnt suit our schedule. So yeah went to have lunch/dinner. Reached home at 5pm.

“So we’re teenagers. We fall in love too often, too easily and too hard for our own good. We don’t listen to the people that we value the opinion of the most. We hurt the people we love & we make the same mistakes over and over. We want all the privileges of being older, with the advantages of being young. We do things no one can explain, including us. Every minute of it is exhausting and every minute is amazing.”

I did it again, so i'm gonna let the beat drop. Ohmygosh...

Hello! Sorry i didnt blog for so long again! Hehe, because of Oeuvre!!! It was a blast man yesterday night! This would only be a summarized post. I hope by next week, i can post at least an alternate day post, okay? (:

Tuesday - Thursday
School in the morning, then dance in the afternoon till 5.30. It was kinda boring uh, cause Ms Shining wasnt here. Only thursday. Wednesday was dear Charlotte's birthday!!! Hehehe. Kinda attituded Jonas. Lol i apologised already. Everything's aye ok~ Went to get Charlotte's flowers with Yvonne and Jonas after dance on Thursday. I have no idea why he always so shy when he see us. UNCLE WE ARE FRIENDS. -_- Went to the Far east flower shop thingy and bought her flowers! I dont know how Yvonne stand the freaking cold room smell. God, so stinky! My mom also, mad one. LOLLL. Something super epic happened during the bus trip back to J8. Seriously man!!! Haha!!

Came home after that and there was a facebook war at my wall. Damn that person, Derrich Thow Pabueytho. Seriously, i'm warning everyone. If you see this person on your friend requests list, PLEASE DO NOT ACCEPT. He is practically creating trouble for himself. I only told Zhengxiang and Jazreel to help me comment. Sialah suddenly so many people comment. THEN, he also offended SO many people! Ugh i dont want to post anymore things about him.

OEUVRE V, FRIDAY 9th JULY 2010

(If you're wondering why i'm not in this costume, its because i'm not in this particular dance item. I came to BPS late and they already learnt the dance.)

Went school in the morning as usual and i found Jonas sitting on our table. O.O Kinda surprised me because usually, he wouldnt even dare to walk near us. I meant with my clique. Haha. Went up to the hall, didnt had morning assembly because we were excused from that. So headed to dance studio, packed our stuff and slacked till 8am.

Reached NAFA at 8.45am. Camwhored alot. Well i meant for me ah, cause i very seldom take photos already. Warmed up and then rehearsal started soon after. Kinda bad uh for both rehearsal. Very loser-ish. Did makeup at 5plus, then camwhored and slacked till it's time for us to perform. We were all in the dressing room, looking at the CCTV. Omg so many people coming in at 6.30 la! HAHA the first group i saw was Jonas they all! Jeremy too. Then followed by Alexea and co. Blahblahblah alot to mention. HAHA. Had a group hug before performance. Omg very emotional. It reminded me alot of Superteen man. Omg very touching hehehe!!!

Sincerely Jane was actually kind of screwed for me. In fact, it was the worst one for me out of the three times i did for the whole day. I have to say i did not bad for my solo HAHAHA. But other than that, i kinda kept pulling my dress. Not really pulling. Idk what i did!!! I know it was bad la. Somehow no one noticed because they all said it was fantastic. YAY!!!!

Student Choreography 1(Merry Go Round) was awesome!!!! Except for my hand stand! DAMN IT. In the morning, i flipped over when i did the handstand. After that i got kong ju gan already. So it was so low during the performance. So sad :( Student Choreography 2(Nocturnal something LOL) was also great!!!! I saw them at the CCTV. They did waaaay better than the 2 rehearsals.

Sounded Space and Home was obviously fantastic!!!! These 2 dances are the greatest, to me!!! After that, went out to the auditorium to cheer for Ms Shining. Watched the band first cause they were the last item. Gosh they were taking so long... I thought it was ending already thats why we went up. Nevermind we were cheering for them :) Sang the school song. Ohmygosh that was the loudest i've heard in my entire time in BPS!!! Woohoo!!! Went home at 10plus11. Slept at 12plus1.

Thanks for everyone who came. Very appreciated.
Mummy, Daddy, Spencer, Yolande, Jazreel, Jonas, Thignesh, Dennis, Kaiquan, Zhengxiang, Xinni, Geraldine, Jocelyn, Jeremy, Khairi!
I love you dancers, you all were wonderful.
Liqian, Josephine, Charlotte, Andrea, Jai, Amanda, Yvonne, Sitifarah, Johanna, Azura, Shafiqah, Syarifah, Farhana, Vanessa, Natasha, Bellda, Yanying, Caifong, Juliana, Fatin, Elaina, Zhining, Sujun, Brenda, Stefani, Ivana, Judith, Wanping, Alyssa, Jeanneth, Nadiah, Chenxian, Xuanyi, Rachel, Joleen, Mi, Wenyan.
Of course, Mrs Low & Ms Shining too!!
(Not in any order)

You know i'm trying to upload the photos here. BUT ALL THE UPLOADERS ARE ALL NOT WORKING!!! I really dont know why!!! Sigh, i want the photos to be here. How?????

HEY EVERYONE. PHOTOBUCKET IS BACK TO NORMAL ALREADY. But, quality of the photo is not very good because most of the photos are taken using Charlotte's camera. Her cam sucks!!! HEHEHEHE kidding la~













Awwman i think i'm wearing Jai's hat HAHA.

Me and junior, Farhana :)

Me and another junior, Wanping. HAHA.








Yay i love charlotte.

"I'm hotter than you." Jacob says.

Heyhey babes. I caught Eclipse today with Yvonne and her couz, Liqian, Jonas & Joel! It was awesome seriously! The only thing was there was totally no seats left so we ended up sitting at the first rock. Sucky maximum. There was this scene when Edward and Bella were intimate. Not VERY but close. Then that stupid idk who, Joel or Jonas, go say DENNIS THAT ONE, SHANETTE THIS ONE. THERE SHANETTE AND DENNIS. Walao ehz. Actually i didnt know they were saying me. Until they said the second time LOL.

I know Edward's sweet. Jacob also what!!! Jacob even almost lost his life because of Bella! :( Bella why you dont like Jacob!!! So sad you knowz. I see Jacob so pain i also pain sial. HAHA. It was nice. Eclipse was nice. I dont really know why some people said it wasnt nice o.o I didnt read the papers so i dont know HAHA.

Joel and Jonas went for Judo Federation while the others and me went walking around J8 aimlessly. COME ON, ITS JUNCTION 8. BORING SHIT OK! I helped my mom bought her iphone cover then headed home. Saw a really cute spag top at Cotton On that i liked. Didnt buy it though, i dont have enough money. Heh. Yeah like that lor, home after that LOL.

I'm lazy to carry on posting so i shall just end it here. Bye there's school tomorrow.

A POST JUST FOR A PRETTY AND AMAZING SINGER.

You guys should really check this beautiful girl out. She's only 15!!! So talented, she have got such a awesome voice seriously. I have no idea why she is not famous/popular LOL. Go subscribe to her if you've got a youtube account ok!!!! ♥

Her name's Hunter Pecunia!


This is billionaire's cover by her.


This is her version of Tik Tok by Kesha! AWESOME SERIOUSLY I LOVE THIS! :D

Hectic week.

Hello. Ha i know i'm losing my readers but I DONT CAREEEEE.

This week is the first week of school and it didnt really go VERYVERY bad. I'm obviously saying that it was bad. Have been rather mood this week because of god knows what reason. PMS i guess. Dance everyday from Monday to Thursday. Tiring yes, but its alright. I have already overcome my fear of stagefright. But on Wednesday when the Netballers really SAT DOWN and STARED at all of us, i almost tripped while doing my 2turns. Damnit, partly because of the red carpet. Ugh should have just removed the stupid carpet. Yes i SMILED~ and they LAUGHED! Mistakes were everywhere la.

Thursday was really a FUCKED UP DAY! Like seriously! Everything went so wrong!!!!! First, Esther How that idiot picked on me during morning assembly. She whacked me on my eye which is badly damaged because i was using my phone. DAMN YOU ITS NOT LIKE THE FIRST TIME I'M DOING THAT RIGHT!? I know you're stronger than me but you DO NOT need to show how strong you are! Then after morning assembly, she personally told me to see her and then she started picking on me again. Of course, every teacher would start by saying: "I am not here to pick on you." DAMN IT WHATEVER. THE WHOLE SCHOOL KNOWS YOURE THE MOST BIAS TEACHER. Skirt, Socks and handphone. What! My skirt short because i grew fatter so i have to pull it higher so that it'll be looser. WRONG MEH?!

Social studies kinda brightened up my day a little because Ms Bernice Chen was back and she kinda made me class laughed because of her unfortunate happenings. Chinese was obviously boring and i almost fell asleep. Cmon almost everyone did la. PE was SUPER depressing because we took height and weight. I'm 164cm as usual but I AM SO NOT REVEALING MY WEIGHT. Ok i am not overweight BUT STILL, that weight to me is UNACCEPTABLE!!!!!!!! -.- So this was the major thing that happened that made my whole day so down.

During dance, Josephine told me that i did not have enough energy for my dance. Ha kinda true. Where can i find the mood to dance properly when i've been so moody the whole god damn day?! Plus i'm supposed to smile all the way OMFG. Crazy siao whatever. Then when it was time was Sincerely Jane, i realised my shoe wasnt in the dance studio! I can go SIAO i tell you!!!!! I was panicking like hell and attituded Yvonne ALOTTTTT. She still helped me by running up to the Hall to check it up but to no avail. When she was back, the seniors then told me Mrs Low kept it because i left it in the hall on Wednesday. Ugh. So i danced without shoes and my tube wasnt pinned to my tanktop. I totally didnt have the mood to care how i looked that day already. My hair kept falling to my face and i think i look like pontianak plus my tubedress became a normal tube. They say i not enough energy right? FINE i threw all my energy out for Sincerely Jane. HA she didnt say anything much. It was so pathetic that Charlotte had to say: She put quite alot of energy for her solo. I think teacher didnt even agreed to what she said la please! This is how lousy i am. GOODNESS GRACIOUS.

EVERYTHING HAPPENED IN JUST ONE DAY. I can kill myself i tell you. Thank god my mom was home so she could fetch me home. I really am sorry to Yvonne because i know she did nothing wrong and i was just throwing my tantrum to her for no reason.

Friday wasnt really that bad. School was okay... Math was the most interesting as usual. Went to catch Letters to Juliet with Yvonne, Xinni and Sasha after school. Omg it was very lovey dovey! Me like(Y)! Hehe, went home after that. It was pouring very heavily!!! I've got no umbrella and my home phone's spoilt! I texted winnie that biatch and she didnt really. Ugh i had to call my bro (thank god he's home) so she could bring umbrella to the busstop and i can go home. Thank god even more my dad's home. So he drove me back. LOL. Got addicted to some weird shape app on my phone and started playing with it till i realised time was ticking and decided to bathe. I finished my homework. Only left with DNT and CS which alot of work is needed so i leave it for Saturday and Sunday.

Actually i wanted to catch Eclipse with my mom. But zzz, she gotta bring my grandma to the doc's tomorrow morning because her eye's are not functioning very well. (What's with people's eyes these days?!) Nevermind, think i'm gonna catch it with my clique on Monday. Gotta get Charlotte's and Liqian's present by this weekend.

Ouevre is so near now. It's in exactly a week's time!!! Not really though, i think its' 6 days more. OMG!!!!!! :( So many people are going!!! Ok i mean alot of people whom i know of are going. You know how to make myself feel better? "AIYA we dance on stage also cannot see the audience one. NEVERMIND LA." Heh~! Yes i will dance well. *Prays*



Alright i shall be off now. This post is long enough to last a week right?! HAHAHAH okay la i will TRY and post tomorrow or the day after. When i say "try", it'll never ever happen.

Does anybody know how it feels like to feel larger than life?
To look deep in your soul and know you're not alone?
Does anybody know how it feels to find something thats real & make it your own?
That's when you've found home.