I feeel really fat still... Sigh. It's a very sad thing to be fat la walao..
I dont look fat in PICTURES. Of course la, who want to put ugly picture to let the public to see. -.-
Then i'm photogenic ma, of course i know how to hide my fats la. Sigh.
Lying to myself, wadahell. Pictures are decieving though it tells a thousand words.
): Really.. How to slim down. I keep telling myself i'll restrain myself from eating junk food.
But the temptation around me can kill.. Seriously, no one will know how i feel.
-.- If only the people around me were fatter. If not i wished i was slimmer.
): I always say how much fat people are like all normal people.
Still same thing, decieving myself... How sad sad sad.
Fat people let people laugh at, world cannot accept fat people. ):
I'm freaking sad to the max. Stop telling me i'm not fat if you havnt seen me before.
Don't console me even if you've seen me before.
How can Annabelle thighs be bigger than mine? How can Klaryce's arms be bigger than mine?
How can Jazreel's WHOLE BODY be bigger than mine? How can Winnie's stomach be bigger than mine?
You people are a piece of shit la. So fake la. ): Imma giant..
Why everyone all 150cm +++++, i 160cm++++!? Okeh not everyone. But, those i mixes with.
ALL 150+++. ): Am i fated to be laughed at all my life? Am i fated to be alone all my life?
): It's so saddening la.
Nothing happened much on Sunday. Morning woke up and went for guitar lesson.
I love my current teacher, so lucky i changed teacher. We can communicate well.
Watched tv and watched Table of Glory for the whole afternoon till Church time.
Was very lazy to go church lo.. Cause i damn shag looking. ._. Then dont feel like going.
But i dint go on Saturday... So go on Sunday lo... Aiyo... SIAN TO THE MAX LA.
Prepared and went to church. We went quite early somemore. -.-
Cause family went for dinner. So... there werent alot of people. Infront of me alot of empty spaces.
Suddenly, a guy came out from the sachrist room and take the cross behind.
Ehem.... It was..... EHEMMMMMMM. ._. Then i was sitting at the back at first.
Don't want to sit infront. Sitting at the back, the backview also not bad. LOL.
So i sit there. Then when EHEM come out right, Winnie eyes damn sharp.
Quickly pull me infront. Wa she good. Make me feel so ucomfortable for the whole mass period.
._. kuku winnie calubaquib. Lol. Went home and watched Table of Glory again.
Today leh, did nothing too. Woke up nearly 11. Was really lazy to go tuition.
3hours tuition leh.. ): I hate it la. Same subject somemore. SCIENCE SOMEMORE.
Want my life sia. -.- Sigh... Pathetic life.. Watched 1 episode of Table of Glory.
Prepared for tuition. The sun so hot... Winnie walked with me to Kovan.
Heheh.. We chatted alot. I TELL YOU SHE DAMN DAY DREAMING LA.
Say alot of DREAMY STUFF that i WISH IT WILL HAPPEN but IT WILL NOT HAPPEN.
Qi si ren. Make me also start day dreaming. Aiyoo. QI SI REN LA WINNIE.
LOL. Tuitioned for 3 bloody hours. MY HOLY GOD, DAMN TORTURING.
I FACED THOSE CHEMISTRY SHIT FOR 3 PATHETIC HOURS. More than half of my life is gone la.
So tiring. I want to escape from class lo, but i cannot do it. Fucking chicken right.
._. Yeah that's me... What to do? Cannot do anything also. Lol.
Went home straight away, too hell already. I scareeeed. -.- Reached home and slacked.
Sigh. Ate alot today.. I swear i'm not going to eat lunch and breakfast or dinner tomorrow.
I'll skip 2 meals tomorrow!!! I SWEEEEARRRRR, i cannot stand my fatness.
Really, if i got money go liposuction, i sure go. 3k per arm.
How CHEAPPPPPP eh. -.-. Even my mum got money also dont want to go la. So CHEAP.
Fat fat fat, everywhere also fat. FAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT. I GOT BIG BONES AND FATS.
URH I WANNA DIE DIE DIE. You people don't tell me relax uh.
Tell me relax i sure use chopper come after you. -.- Where got people ranting then tell people relax one.
Wanna make the person burst a vessel meh. Rahs, rah rah rah rahhhhhhs. !?!?!?
FAT FAT FAT FAT WHY THE FUCK AM I SO FAT. Okok, back to the post.
Watched another episode of Table of Glory and ate dinner. Sigh. Eat again kns.
After eating, watch abit of another episode of Table of Glory and went jogging.
Lol, i realised my stamina so low... WADAHELL. I jogged for like ... 30minutes.
Then went back home. Sheryl's a bitch. She was walking her fucking dog.
THEN SHE SEE ME, SHE RELEASE HER DOG. TMD SHE WANT TO DIE ISSIT.
Seriously, her dog bites people. REALLY. WTF. I'M SO AFRAID OF HER DOG.
So guess what, i ran and ran but the fucking dog still came. Then when the dog was under control, I FELL DOWN.
STUPID. I HATE THAT DOG. I HATE THAT DOG BIGTIME. I ALSO HATE SHERYL.
I don't know what i've done to her that she must do this to me.
MY MOOD AINT GOOD FROM THE START. SO WHAT IF SHE'S A 8YEAROLDKID?
ZZZZZ. 8YEAROLDKID CAN DO SUCH STUPID BRAINLESS STUFF ISSIT? Roars, i cursed her and i ran off.
I really cannot control my temper. -.- PISSED ME OFF. My leg already have so many scars.
Thanks to the amount of falls i've got. Now starting to go away already.
SHE COME GIMME ANOTHER SCAR. I W A N N A S T R A N G L E H E R. I R E A L L Y D O.
-.- Went back home and cooled down first before going to bathe. My acne skin is getting better already. Thanks to the near facial wash.
The Body Shop Aloe things are nice to use. I got sensitive skin.. -.-
So i bought the Aloe facial wash. I love aloevera. LOL. It always cure my pimples.
Last time i used Aloevera mask twice, my pimples gone. Aloe vera rocks.
Hahahah really very good for my skin. :D I'm gonna get the lipbalm and toner soon.
Alright, think i shall end my post for now. Really wanna slim down. Must think of something....
I FOUND THIS IN KLARYCE LIM SISTER BLOG. LOL WADAHELL. I LOOK LIKE PIG.
