I'm drifting away from everyone.

Hihi! I'm sad :( I didnt do Sincerely Jane properly. Beginning already make mistake. HAHA cuz i was dreaming. Of a split second my mind was blanked out because of the Audience. Then ah, hmmm o.o YA they kept laughing too. WHAT'S SO FUNNY. It's a performance not a comedy damnit. Did we really do so badly that they have to keep laughing non stop?! When Bellda dropped her hat, everyone laughed until the next phrase man. Like what is up with y'all?! Try going up and perform and you'll know how we feel. Also didnt get to take ANY photos because had no time. Make up also anyhow put then go up stage. Worst thing was we had to wait for like 15min or so before our turn! We couldve just stayed in the dance studio to make up la. Aigo..

Went home straight after school because i was planning to meet Jai and Liqian after bathing. But when i reached home, i was locked outside the house for 15minutes or so and i was SO FED UP! Ok i know i'm being very annoying here trying to bitch about what happen but seriously no justice is done to me. My parents should just give me the keys la. If only the NEW maid didnt come to this house, there's seriously peace and quiet. -.- I got so tired being angry with them that i had no mood to go out and so, i told Jai to meet up tomorrow instead.

I'm not gonna eat Dinner. I wanna slim down. The determination and motivation is back but i know it'll be gone soon. Mother bought rowing machine and the bicycle thingy that you'll find at the gym on Sunday. Ima row the sweat out of me later! Hahaaa..

So i watched Dream Team that i recorded on Sunday. I didnt know it's the same episode that i watched on the internet last week. However, without subtitles. Hahaaa, i hope Dream Team comes Singapore with Taemin and Alexander. They are just so cute la! :P Ah in any case, SHINee is coming Singapore! I should be contented enough. THE TICKETING HAVENT EVEN COME OUT LAH. I everyday checkcheckcheck HAHA, cuz i scared later people also as kanchiong as me then ticket no more... Aigo aigo.

Yayayayay SHINee coming singapore woohoowoohoo! Heheee~!

Shining stars

Gosh my Audition is not working AGAIN. So annoying. I think my blog is telling me, "YOU BETTER UPDATE, OR ELSE!?!?#!*^@!&$^" Yeah so, it's "Or else" is to dc my Audition. Pathetic la. Now cannot go in already.

I havent been doing anything interesting this past few days. Its just school and a BBQ on Saturday. It was fun because of the dumbest jokes created by Kahsiang and group. Haha totally nothing to write man seriously. There's performance tomorrow and i'm only thinking about that now. I feel like i've forgotten to do something but i dont know what. Cuz i'm like so free now.

I'm kinda happy because i'm gonna use my Polaroid tomorrow! HAHA. Ima take all the poses of Sincerely Jane. I already thought of what to take and i'm super happy la seriously hehehehe... Also, i've been crazing over SHINee still ^_^ they are awesome people okay.

I dont know who that girl is but she is super extra. LOL.

Charismatic Minho & Maknae Taemin (L)

So i've also been looking at photos of hair. I DONT KNOW WHY ALSO. So envious la, especially this girl's. I totally love her hair length and colour man. It's so Sitifarah's hair, BUT I LIKE LOR! Sitifarah and Bellda's hair best man!! I miss my fringe wtf. Dont like the person who cut my fringe... I told him to keep length but cut the left side shorter. HE GO CUT UNTIL EVERYTHING SHORT!!!! Now i have to wait until probably Nov for my fringe to grow back again and then ask someone else to cut. Nonsense person.

Surrender your heart.

You know, i want to blog but i really got nothing to write sial. HAHA. Okay let me recall what i did the past 3 days...

So i went out with Jazreel and Jonas. Watched Step up 3!!! It was so awesome!! Omg i just love dance so much hahaha~! Even though we didnt do anything much, i still thought it was meaningful. Its been so long since i saw Jazreel. Obviously, she is still a pretty as ever :) Jonas got angry halfway thru becuz of Jazreel HAHAHA :P Nah it was nothing. Just a small joke. I wanted to stay on longer to talk to Jazreel, since i havent seen her for so long. But yeah it was time to go home. Owell... Ima see her this coming Saturday!! But she's gonna come so late la damn her. 6.30pm?! -.- Herh i shall cycle with Charlotte first lor!! :P

Sunday, as usual, boring. Morning had guitar but i was damn shagged out. HA why? Cuz i have bad flu and sorethroat. Didnt went for aural. Hehehe.. Slept all the way from 1plus to 5plus in the evening. Eh sick what. Sick must sleep right? Woke up and then went for dinner at Whampoh. Bakuhteh~!  Then went Thomson cuz Spencer wanna get stuff.

Monday, didnt really pay attention in classes la~ Hahaha, i was just killing time and counting down to dance. Quite disappointed ah, didnt do much @ dance becuz of the lack of time... Practiced Sincerely Jane and teacher changed the formation alittle. Jo replaced Brenda's solo ^_^ Practice makes perfect, you'll do great babe~ Teacher put me in the front for the start. Aiyo ._. Actually, i kinda like stoning at the back until the chorus eh... Sigh, nevermind. Teacher also said she'll add people in for the center group before the floor phrase. WHY!!! There's totally no seniors inside lor. Nothing to change la! And somemore if too many people doing that, not nice la! Hope my position wont change. -_- I really dont like adapting to new environment. You know what? The worst thing that could happen, is that teacher replace my solo with someone else. HA if that really happens, that seriously proves i'm hopeless. We shall see on Thursday.

Tuesday, i passed my Chi test!! Hehehe, concentrated so much during math class that i totally forgotten to do bio homework. Copied Jonas' one hahaha. Went to trim my fringe with Jai just now ah. They cut so much!! I told them to keep my fringe length but left side cut shorter (Slant). AIYO qisiren he go cut until now like bangs. ._. Aiya dont care alr, it'll grow right?

Going to watch the Gymnastics tomorrow woohoo~! I think i'm going to die during DNT tomorrow. Seriously. ._. I totally dont know what to do with the cardboard. Ah who cares. HELLO I BLOGGED OK. Hahaaaaaa.

I love this guy so much.

HAHA TAEMIN AH~~~~!!!

CN.BLUE!

Hello! Yesterday night was a storm man. even though there were alot of people, even though we didnt buy their tickets, WE STILL GOT TO SEE THEM RIGHT! Very clearly la! It's not vividly stored in my memories okay! Hahahaha, they introduced themselves in ENGLISH you know! So cool ^_^ and some fangirls were just plain fucking lucky la! Cuz they stole a hug from Jonghyun and Yonghwa!!!! Ohmygosh!! Their concert is today!!! :( But nevermind. Im contented to see them in RL already!!!! Ima let the photos do the talking. YAY BABY!!!! Oh fyi, i'm meeting Jazreel and Jonas later. ITS BEEN SO LONG, THAT I'VE SEEN JAZREEL MY DEAR. LOL. Okay need to go and prepare already. Annyeong!!!

JOONGSHIM LOOKING HERE!!!

YOU SEE THE STUPID BITCH STANDING SO FREAKING CLOSE TO YONGHWA?! (Blueshirt)

Wa wanna punch her face!!! LOL.

JONGHYUN LOOKING AT OUR CAMERA LEH!!! HAHAHAHA.

Sorry for the blurred photos. Bad camera but its better than nothing ^_^

I got the 4 photos from online. THEY ARE WAY CLEARER LA. So envious of those infront :(

Minhyuk~!

Jonghyun~!!! (SOCUTE! HAHA)

HAHAHA YONGHWA!!!!!!

Joongshim!

Its hard to let go when thats the only thing you'd want.

When you start to know someone, all their physical characteristics start to disappear. You begin to dwell in their energy, recognize the scent of their skin. You see only the essence of the person, not the shell. That’s why you can’t fall in love with beauty. You can lust after it, be infatuated by it, want to own it. You can love it with your eyes and your body but not your heart. And that’s why, when you really connect with a person’s inner self, any physical imperfections disappear, become irrelevant.

-Lisa Unger, Beautiful Lies

Hello. When i woke up this morning, i thought it was Saturday and thought i could sleep in. When i realised that it was on Tuesday, totally killed my mood. Life's still the same. Nothing much to talk about. I nearly cried after watching this motivational video Esther how showed the class during CE period. Just watch it. I feel so guilty for being so loserish when him, without limbs and arms can live so happily.



You should totally check this dude out man. Just watch really. JUST WATCH!!!!!!! Of course i didnt cry la. Hahaa. Had MM today and it was extremely boring. Total mood (N) today. Dont ask me why. I just dont understand why i'm feeling this way. Only SHINee makes me happy hahaha.

Totally luv him <3

 Of cuz, not forgetting the rest <3<3  

Taken advantaged.

No one no longer bothers about me. "This girl is always being so negative. I bet she's trying to gain attention by doing that." Wtf if anyone of you ever thinks this way, i think i should really take a knife and stab you and me and we die together. -.- I really got no mood these days and i dont know what to do. My path of life suddenly turned so dark i thought i went blind. I really got nothing to write here. I just want to post something up. I think i'm going insane. People all preparing for PSLE, O's and A's, i'm doing nothing when i'm taking O's next year. SHANETTE AH!!!!!! Fucking hopeless sia you. 

I fell right thru the cracks, now i'm trying to get back.

Hey I've been watching you, every little thing you do.

Every time I see you pass in my homeroom class, makes my heart beat fast.

Wish I could make it real but your lips are sealed, that ain't no big deal.

I think you're fine. You really blow my mind.

Maybe someday, you and me can run away.

I just want you to know, I wanna be your Juliet.

Hey Romeo

Hihi. School was as usual today, except i yawned alot. Tumblr wasnt working on my phone when i was in school. Made me kinda upset and bored too. Cuz i cannot see my SHINee faces :( Haha.. I was planning to trim my hairends off after school. Yvonne suggested to bring me to the place where she always cut her hair. But the shop didnt open for god knows what reason. So i ended up going home. The weather was so hot! However it changed the moment i reached home. I feel as if the sky's gonna turn dark in minutes but its actually only 6.15pm. HAHA.

I want to be pretty. I want pretty features so i do not need to hide behind my hair ._. So that I can clip up all my hair that seriously itches my face. Ugh nonsense what's wih my inbalanced features, YOU TELL ME LA. Zzz have been seriously moody these days. I'm not sure if my posts can tell how i feel. Most of the time when i'm really upset, i wouldnt have the mood to use the computer. All i want to do, is to sleep. -_- I've been eating alot recently too. For me, thats obviously a sign of moodiness. Usually my clique would eat waaaaaay more than me even though i'm the biggest monster in the clique. Now ah, i follow them sia. They say eat, i eat. How much food also gobble everything down. Eat so much until my skirt like so tight now. DAMNNNNNN.

Yesterday talked to Daddy in the night. He talked to me about something about my sleeping hours. It's not that i dont want to sleep la!!! But during the night, is the only time when i can think of everything that has happened during the day. Things i regret, things i feel proud of(none most of the time.), things i really wish to change etc. So obviously i got loads of negative ions in my head la. Hence, insomnia. -_-

Shanette ah shanette.....

Will i be able to pull through?

The thought of dropping to Normal Acadamic is scaring me once again. Sigh Shanette became a fucking loser. Let's rewind back to the past and i'll tell you how pathetic my school life has become.

In Primary school, i used to score Band1s for almost everything. When i dont, parents would definitely cane me for not studying. I remember i even compared Math marks with Dennis Yeo when we were in the same class. But without fail, he'd definitely score afew marks higher than me, which really pisses me off. Nevermind, because that was the motivation for me to work harder to beat that idiot's score.

The first time i failed a subject was in Primary 4. And the subject was, Science. It was always Science! I cried so badly even though i only failed by 1mark. I knew my mother would murder me, literally. Worst thing was, Dennis' parents knew my parents and he was in the same class as me. I trusted him and told him my marks, hoping that he would help me keep this secret. Ha true enough, he went to tell his mother and blahblahblah. Go guess what happened yourself. -_-

Primary 5, my math started to get from bad to worst. Because that year was the year with a booklet B which is upon 80marks. 50marks was Section C, PROBLEM SUMS. Worst nightmare for most of the people who hated math. So i struggled badly during 3/4 of the year, always getting a C6. Some miracle happened during EOY, as i scored a 70/100. I totally cried infront of the whole class and obviously it was tears of joy. I tell you even the teacher was shocked with my score. -_-
(Fyi, i never had problems with English nor Chinese in Primary School.)

Primary 6, i got transferred to Zhonghua primary and therefore, a new start. I have big problems with adapting so obviously, it affected me and my studies very badly. Well, i passed all my subjects. All borderline only. Like 50-60plus. & PSLE, i managed to squeeze in to Express Course. Mother suggested me to go take NA course but in a good school but i chose EXP in a neighbourhood school. I just wouldnt listen to people's advices.

Sec1, didnt do very badly. Humanities was my weakest subject, as usual. My first F9 was for Geography. The rest, i got like As and Bs. However, i started to mix with people who goes out every single day like everyday's holiday and blahblahblah. All those nonsense. ._. I ended up not studying and fail all my classtests. CT2, did very badly. Like nothing passed except math, english and chinese. Got into deep shit when EOY was nearing and parents found out. So they pushed me hard for my exam, and, i passed everything except for Science and Humanities and Homec.

Sec2, transferred again to Bishan Park Secondary. Totally mental breakdown. Everyday also cry because i totally couldnt adapt to the environment. I thought people there were very friendly but soon after greeting Hi, they started to ignore me. None of them would accept me into their clique. & i was always either alone or with Chuanzhen. Fucking pathetic. A quarter year passed, i finally made friends with Jazreel, Charlotte and Yolande. They were my life saviours for the year. Without them, HOW THE HECK AM I GONNA SURVIVE IN BPS?! I did tremendously well for CT1, and then started to become bad once again. ._. Failed Humanities & Science. Parents expected me to go into Pure stream but i obviously failed them.

Sec3, the optimum point reached. FAILING EVERY SINGLE SUBJECT, INCLUDING ENGLISH FOR GOD KNOWS WHAT REASON! Yeah, i'm a mother fucking loser. I think i'll grow up to sweep the floors. I want to go into Lasalle. In order to go there, i need an O level certificate. You know, i really dont care how bad i dance. I know for dance, no matter how hard it is, i'll definitely strive for it. Sigh.

This CT, i know i improved. But SO WHAT?! It's only fugging 15%. SA2 is 45%. I got like 48% or something like that for the last half of the year. CAN I MAKE IT? I really dont know. I dont wish to lose hope for myself. But c'mon, its really time to face reality. I only left 1month. ONE BLOODY MONTH TO CATCH UP A YEAR'S WORK! -_- I really wished a miracle could happened to me right now, really.. Did i mention that i couldnt sleep last night, just wondering what would happen to me when i get laterally transferred to NA? :( Ugh. I wished i could bribe the person who's gonna promote me.


Another issue, my face. ITS REALLY GONE CASE. Sigh. I hate myself i swear. I wished i had fucking rich parents and they would bring me to everywhere to cure my face regardless of the price. Fuck it will never happen.

Electric Heart

Hihihihihi. I'm so loving my ipod now. HAHAHA. It's like updated yo! Aish, i only updated Korean songs. English one, i'm updating now hehehee. Tomorrow liqian can go see see my newly updated ipod already.

I cannot wait to go out with Jazreel and Jonas this coming Saturday. & the Saturday after that, i'm gonna see my awesome childhood friend, Fion Lee En Qi~! Hahaaaa. Now i only needa find people to go cycling with me. I feel so sad becuz of this la. I havent cycled for like a good 6months. -_- Hope i can go cycling this coming Friday... :( I wanna cycle badly!

Did nothing today. Just entertained myself with dramas. First, this hk drama, idk call what name. Channel 855 and 856 always play in the morning and afternoon one. Then watched Starking. Gosh hilarious to the max! Lets go dreamteam next. SO CUTE LA. MINHO WAS SO BABY LOOKING. Ohman so cute!!! I kinda think he shouldnt cut his hair short lor. He look so nice with long hair :( Went to have dinner after that and came home to watch Rosy Business. Such a nice show. :D HK dramas best man, really ^_^.

Tomorrow's schoool again. How i wished i can go Thailand during the sept holidays. I want major shopping spreeeeee. Ok forget about that. It aint gonna happen. Let's talk about something more realistic. Like, THE UPCOMING TEACHER'S DAY PERFORMANCE!!!! Gosh fat costume alert, Shanette. HOW TO SLIM DOWN AH?! Can i have like a personal trainer anot. ._. Can la, if you got the money, Shanette... LOL.

NOTHING TO POST ALREADY HAHAHA.

I LOVE샤이니(SHINee)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

An unachievable love is still love.

Hello! There's nothing that i wanna say about my day today. It's just the same thing everyday! The thing that brought my whole mood up was, MY MOM FIXED THE COMPUTER!!! What an expert man! I was freaking screaming and jumping with joy AT NIGHT man HAHAHA. So yeah, started downloading all the songs and videos that i wanted to for the past 1 and the half weeks. Only managed to downloaded 25songs. The computer was too lag. I'm already freaking thankful the computer managed to pull through whatever tough times it was going thru la! HAHA.

I'm so addicted to this two songs currently: 내가 사랑했던 이름(The Name I loved) by Onew & Life by SHINee. They are so meaningful and touching!! Ohman :( Hahaaa, getting too emotional over songs these days. Cuz the singer really can express that kind of feeling ma! Haha.. & I think i'm insane. All of a sudden, i'm mad in love with Mickey Mouse & Hello Kitty. -_- Wth is wrong with me?!

Taemin Saranghae! Hehe. (L)!!!

Thanks for producing such an awesome solo song.

ONEW, ROCK ON!!! (L)

My hands become cold.

The memory of love coldly draws near.

It becomes painful.

I don't want to be unfair to you any longer.

Knowing that I can't love you,

Who is close to me,

Who can't look at me,

It's too hard to wait,

I can't stand it anymore.

Since it won't be achievable.

That name I loved became too distant as I went out to call it.

I now write that name down. I'm on the verge of tears.

I want to hide within myself.

Remember that day now where all I could do was love you.

Because an unachievable love is still love.

The feeling of love

That you can't do alone comes to me

The longings that I can't even start only get bigger

Only your scent is left

In the cold, corner of my heart

Turn back a thousand times to the moment we first went to that point.

I'll take away everything from that one corner of my heart.

내가 사랑했던 이름(The Name I loved) - Onew ft. Yeonwoo 

What more can i say? I love SHINee.

Hello. Exams are finally over. Lol and obviously the bigger exam is coming. Whatever i should take a week's rest hahaha.

Nothing much happened in school so there is nothing much i could elaborate. People in my life, Amanda, Andrea, Charlotte, Liqian, Jai, Yvonne, Kimiko, Geraldine, Sasha, Sitifarah, Jonas, Kaiquan, Jocelyn Tan, they just make my school life filled with so much colours. Without them, my school life is just one colour, BLACK. I cant wait till New Year's. Becuz i cant wait to write my clique of 6, excluding me, a dedication letter. Wow i really love them. Haha.

Had h2h talk to Liqian, Amanda, Andrea yesterday. Kaiquan was talking here and there too, so funny haha!! And Charlotte joined in after awhile. You people ah, will never ever know how Amanda thinks. She is not as innocent as she looks. HAHAHAHA kidding yo~ She's so awesomely cute la. I knew a little more about her after yesterday's talk. I mean its normal right? Usually after a hearty talk with your close ones, you'd definitely feel like you know them a little better. Yeah hahaa.

Random thought: I really love my blog songs! I'll back off so you can live better - G.NA, Nagging - IU, Love is bitter, pain is calling - Seo In Young. Wow you should just go read the English translation for those songs. DAMN MEANINGFUL LA. Especially the first one. Can cry sia :'(

I hope all of you are not as stress now as i assume that most of you have finished your mini exams. Well, poor sec4s and Sec5As. ._. They are mugging like a robot for O's. Sigh it'll be my turn next year. Will i even be able to take O's next year? Lord, i only want to be promoted to 4E3. Really i swear i'll study... Sigh... I cannot imagine myself in NA at all!!! Imagine yourself leaving your bestfriend because you've dropped to a lower level. Ohmyfgod, if that really happens, i'll be crying myself to sleep everynight. I'm serious. It happened to me before during one of the times when i transferred school. Dont know to which school. Yeah.... please dont happen.

Stress level going above my head.

Hi. I feel very, toasted. You know what? I'm trying to do E-learning to learn Chemistry chapter 5 and 6. Damn it. Blame myself for not listening in class. Sigh :( But so irritating! Why did Ms Shanti put those two chapters in?! Isnt CT supposed to test what we learn for that term? Ugh.... I really hope majority of the questions for chemistry would be telling us to balance the equation and stuff. So all i need to do is to remember those mol fomulas :( I thought of asking Brice. Becuz he is a chemistry freako. But after another thought of it, what can he do, huh?! Fly to my house? Teach me over the phone, internet? Crazy Shanette you're dreaming.

On thurs, i'll be having Math and Bio. Stress level x2 of today's.. Math abit safe. I've got Jonas to help. Or Khairi even HAHA. I'm just afraid time is freaking not enough again, like CT1. BIOLOGY LEH??? I need to call ambulance leh really. :( Computer studies, i can ask Charlotte and Amanda. Both of them are like total geeks in this subject. -_-

Shanette time to end your post. You're supposed to be studying. "OHYA. BYE..."

Updated @ 7:07PM
Hey guys i'm back after 3hours plus of Chemistry. I finally understood chapter 5 and 6 with the help of Khairi. Aye he is freaking good at teaching, no joke. LOL. I need to remember the common elements thingy only. I always cant remember la! You know what, i guess here and there one. Lucky then score. ._.  If only i can find a "teacher" for DNT as good as him... Ugh impossible, everyone hates DNT HAHAHA.

Wow i hate bio. -.- The topic that has no fomulas. I should have taken physics. You know subjects with fomulas are like so much easier to score. Cuz if you know the formula, you definitely can do. BUT BIO NEED TO REMEMBER. If you dont, THERE IS NOTHING FOR YOU TO WRITE DOWN. Dang... I know formulas also need to memorize but its waaaay better to remember short and sweet notes than long boring useless texts right.

I didnt eat dinner. I ate so much for lunch! Truthfully, i'm hungry now. But i really need to cut down on my food intake. I can guarentee everyone that i at least gained 1kg. Ughhhhhhh. You know, if Jazreel was still in this school, i wouldnt eat. Because i know she wouldnt either LOL. Okay this is so random. Back to serious business. Actually there is something else which is also very random.

That woman in my house. THAT FREAKING WOMAN. She's the reason why i would rather stay in school than to come back home. She's the reason why i'm always moody and angry. She's the reason to every fucking thing!! You're not hired to be a spy ok. I dont care whether you care about me or not ok. I DONT CARE. Best is you dont come talk to me! If i tell people how you always ask me to go revise my work and stuff, i think all of them laugh until they need the toilet. "SHANETTE? REVIEWING ANOT?" If i say no then? If i say yes then?! ZZZ I dont care what you great shit you did to me in the past. I'VE GROWN UP. Stop treating me like a 7year kid you asshole!!! Hearing just your voice alones irks me to the MAX!!!! You know what's worst? SHE KEEPS WAKING ME UP NON STOP IN THE MORNING!!! Ohmygosh YOU KNOW I CAN KILL PEOPLE IF YOU KEEP DISTURBING ME FROM MY SLEEP?!?!?!? Please la bloodyhell, i can wake up myself la!!! The more you tell me to wake up hor, THE MORE I WANNA SLEEP LA. See you pissed anot la hor. -.-. Pui i dont want to talk about you anymore.

Ok back to studying mood. I'm gonna study chem a little while more then off to dnt already. Annyeong. :)

Written as love, called as pain.

I wanna murder the desktop already!!! My itunes and safari's not working. Fml. Seriously. I needa update my music library badly! It's been dead for almost a week now!!! My internet connection is getting slower and slower everyday. Mummy seriously needs to get a faster connection. AND, my tumblr just wouldnt let me sign in! I keep going back to the login page. Angry maxmaxmax.

Watched inkigayo on my mobile just now! So cool la, though the quality was like drop dead bad LOL. I had a nap just now and it was great man! Had curry rice for dinner and it was delicious.

AYE there's nothing for me to blog! :( I just want the computer to be fixed so that i can hurry update my library! :( Sigh life's so boring without songs. I hate computers. They no feelings :( We love them so much but they can break down anytime without thinking how we feel! Stupid la.

Human philosophy

Why was Snow White given an apple with poison?

To show that not all people are kind to you are really kind. They might have some agenda against you. Looks are decieving.

Why did Cinderella run away when the clock striked 12?

To remind us that everything has limitations, even if it isnt reality.

Why did Ariel decide to exchange her fins with feet?

To show that anyhow will try to lose anything just to be happy.

Hurricane Venus.

Okay hey there. My feelings for today are all jumbled up. For a moment i can be on the top of the world, and the next, at ant's eyeview level. I really need to get some life. I think i should not elaborate on it so therefore, i wont. I feel miserable most of the time. People tell me think of positive side more. It's not that i dont want to. I do not have anything positive to think of! It's like, hoping for something you know it wont happen. I guess what Jocelyn said was true. I am very stressed over the littlest things. I love tumblr alot. I can find the right words that describes my emotions. You guyz seriously need to interpret and infer from the photos more. Hahaha okay thats random.

CT is starting on Wednesday and ending on Friday. Dance is starting the week after if i'm not wrong. I think i'll get all moody again. Everyone all level 3, except me. Loser to the max. Come to think of it, i really cannot think of anything that i can definitely be proud of it. I feel very sad that there's holiday :( I rather be at school. I can concentrate better.

When i'm upset, i can go to _______. That blank has no name on it. I think i should fill in that blank with the word "rubbish dump". When i talk to you, and you argue back just to prove that i am wrong, did you ever think about how i feel? Arent you rubbing salt to my wound?! When i say i need someone to talk to, i literally mean i need someone to hear me rant. All i need is for you to sit there and listen, even if you say nothing. Being all defensive just proves you're a major loser. & if you're reading this, yes i am speaking about you.

Random thoughts currently:
1. Shanette, no more food. You've gotta slim down. You're getting way too fat.
2. Can the blemishes just freaking get out of my life!?
3. I wished I had a good complexion. :(
4. There's alot going in my mind, but why i can't write it out?!?!
5. I want to chat with someone in my MSN list but this laptop that i'm using currently, has no MSN!
6. Slim down Shanette. SLIM DOWN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Its the inside of you that really matters.

Hey. I just saw the recent vid of Shane Dawson. Wow it totally impressed me. Yes i know you might have heard what he said in the video your entire life but still, it touches me everytime i hear it. People who feel inferior and stuff like that should totally watch this video, even if you dont like him or whatsoever reason you've got.



The coolest thing about this was i wrote the exact same thing he said in the video. I totally cant believe it. Okay i was supposed to do a self essay for Dance. The last part of the essay, i have to write a Message to anyone. So i decided to write to myself. To encourage me that no matter what, no one can change me. I wrote this: Even though i'm fat, i'm not pretty and unattractive, there'd still be someone out there who will accept you for who you are. Those who only think looks are important and discriminate you because you're ugly, you should not even bother or think about them!

AH FUCK. I hate people who disrupt my thoughts when i'm blogging. SO IRRITATING. I'm such a forgetful person. The moment i post this, I WILL NOT REMEMBER IT ANYMORE. DAMN IT. I should really put on bigbig earphone so that i will not hear their bloody chatters and wont give a heck about them man. DAMN IT. Ok whatever. Every night is a bloody night and every morning is a dreadful morning.

Worst thing happened in school today. Ok not really worst but, I'm unfortunate to have Ms Esther How pangsai as my English teacher. Like wtf she's fucking bias please. She has never passed my English before. NEVER! I've got 2 English teachers. Ms liew, and her that bitch. Ms liew is a HALF australian and that esther is a PURE SINGAPOREAN. Its freaking obvious that Ms liew's English is waaaaay better than Esther how la. Is she trying to break record or something? NO ONE HAS EVER SAID THAT I COULDNT EVEN FORM A SIMPLE ENGLISH SENTENCE. Its fucking offensive seriously. I dont care if you're a teacher or whatsoever ok. Ha If the next thing i hear from Esther how, would be: I bet your chinese is better than English. IF SHE EVER SAY THAT I THINK SHE REALLY NEED TO VISIT A NEUROLOGIST. Crazy crazy crazy!!!!

Cmon, i'm not perfect i know. I know my English is not THAT marvelous BUT WTH SERIOUSLY. CANNOT FORM A SIMPLE ENGLISH SENTENCE?!@#*$&(@*^@#$! Feel like slapping your fat face. -.- You always talk with no feeling sia really. I pray to god you wont be 3E3's teacher next year man.

Okay enough of the rants. Piss me off only, lol. Tomorrow's Phrenz carnival. Gonna head to bed after this post. I hope everyone will have fun tomorrow. :)

xoxo.

Norago. It's still you.

Okay, my computer is not working well at all. Stupid i'm starting to hate this desktop so much even though it's screen is huge and its a touchtouch. -.- Like dumb sia.

Everyday's dull to me. Nothing's interesting. Phrenz intergames started this week. Netball went into semifinals. 3A2 was powerful. It made my class lose. :( So now netballers fighting for 3rd place. HWAITING!!! :D Floorball went into finals! Yay babies you can get 1st place. Gogogo~ Hehehe. I think soccer also fighting for 3rd place. I am not very sure. Lastly, Basketball 1st round kick out already HAHAHA.

So i was very boring on the Tuesday morning. 2 double periods for the day :( But i went home early that day. I was thinking about this particular someone practically for the whole day. Seriously, havent been thinking for so long until TUESDAY. I dont even know why he came into my mind. So i posted this on my facebook wall: On the verge of forgetting your existence, you appeared again. Well, i was thinking of him what! So i posted that. Ok I swear all this is just a coincidence. In the evening, when Spencer and Winnie was going Serangoon gardens, they concidentally saw him near SPC area. Brother immediately rang me up and you know what? I was like a crazy woman at home. He told me: JIEJIEJIEJIE HE GOING HOME NOW. FASTER COME OUT. NOW!!!!!

I was panicking like crazy. I was so..... slumbery looking LOL. Ah but who the hell gave a damn, you tell me? I hurriedly ran to this Indian temple there. Which was somehow near where he lived. OHMYGOD I was actually earlier than him. I CANT BELIEVE IT. I hope he didnt see me. I think this is rather stupid but at least on the day that i think of him, i get to see him. :)

Sheryl gave me quite a shock this afternoon. Dont really wanna mention about it. Yeah I think this post is random. Lol because i'm not in the mood to post. I totally have no mood to do anything today! I've been trying to find someone whom i can talk to. Fug, really no one. I know i have friends. They dont understand how i feel, totally. Trust me, even my parents dont know what i'm thinking. Ugh :'( There is no one that i can open up to, even my closest buds. Im such a loser i know. Ha so whatever.

I dont care if this post dont make any sense to you. I just need somebody to talk to badly. Tomorrow's Thursday. Hopefully, a movie can brighten up my day. Ah i dont know la. I'm so freaking broke. Bye.

No matter how sad i am, i still love you, SHINee. <3 Hehehe.